FET 6: T minus 2 (2/21/18)

This post was originally written on the date in the subject line. All posts for FET 6 were saved as drafts and posted together as a series on one day. Read more here. 

Two more sleeps until transfer. Scheduled the cleaning crew for Thursday morning. Scheduled a massage for Thursday evening. Transfer is scheduled for 1:15 PM on Friday so we're supposed to arrive by 12:45 PM. At noon I'm supposed to empty my bladder and drink 16 - 20 oz within 15 minutes and hold it until after the transfer. K.

I'm excited and calm. I'm worried and nervous. I'm simultaneously thinking "this is it" and "what a waste." I want to believe that this time it will be different and just can't believe it will be. We've been eating takeout almost nightly. Chinese food tonight; grill yesterday; bagels the day before. I don't know why, I've just been reluctant to cook and tired to shop for groceries. I don't think I'm trying to self-sabotage by pumping my body full of msg; I think I'm getting all the takeout cravings out of my system so that I can avoid it for the weeks after transfer. 

On Friday night we have guests coming and I plan to have literally everything ready before I leave for work. I plan to leave work at noon and meet my husband at home before we go to the clinic together. Once I get home I'll have time to take a shower and get to the clinic with time to spare. At least that's the plan.

Today I went for a checkup for my eyeballs. I saw this article and decided it's time to get my itchy eyes checked out *shiver* Thankfully no eye worms and my itchy eyes are just... itchy. She recommended some eye drops. I also mentioned the eye twitch I've been having on my right eye but she wasn't concerned: caffeine, stress, dry eyes, lack of sleep.... all possible causes. It's pretty minor and has been receding the past few weeks. I told her we're ttc with treatment and she's like, "Yeahhhh.... that kind of stress can take a toll." I didn't even know I was stressed.