It's been a rough few days for me emotionally. Yesterday I got to work over an hour late because I spent the morning crying in bed. I don't know why specifically; I just couldn't make the tears stop. At work I kept tearing up but I hid it well enough and no one noticed. At one point I texted a friend with a picture of my face asking if it's still puffy. I have a hard time telling the difference these days; seems like it's always post-cry puffy.
Today is Israel's Independence Day. While I love the holiday I feel like the celebrations are all geared toward families with kids - carnivals, face painting, moonbounces, cotton candy, etc. We skipped the community party last night -- I just couldn't handle smiling to everyone I know while crumbling on the inside -- but I don't want to be sad so today I'm gonna fake it. Maybe if I act happy it will seep in.
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