Upcoming 2WW

My 2WW officially start as soon as the transfer is complete and I assume I won't be able to resist taking HPTs. Therefore, I decided to take one the morning of transfer day as a control.

Insane, some may say. Brilliant, says I!

During FET 2, I got fooled by the HCG trigger shot and mistook the second line as a positive pregnancy. I was taking daily HPTs and instead of getting darker the line was getting more faint as the days drew closer to the beta test. I chalked it up to having diluted pee or time of day, but in my heart I knew it didn't work and the pee sticks were lying to me about the second line.

Only after it was confirmed by the negative beta that it didn't work did I Google and realize my mistake. I'm not taking any chances this time! I'm getting a control line in the bank before we do anything so that I have something to compare it to.

I'm hoping I can hold out until after 6dpt to take any additional tests but I make no promises. In fact, if I want to believe this is going to work I'd want to know how soon I can get a positive so that I'll know for next baby! I'm giddy with excitement. Or it might be the hormones - the roller coasters are unpredictable.

Even though I'm going to give in to the HPTs, I need to rein in the crazy and take maximum one per day. One every other day is more reasonable. I will have to play it by ear and see how intense I'm feeling. The problem is that if it comes back positive then I'll be overjoyed and excited. But if it comes out negative, it's a soul crushing blow that makes it hard to remain positive and calm about how it may still be too early and there's still a chance it might work. For that alone I may be convinced not to take any HPTs. It's one thing to take that blow on beta day. It's another thing to take it daily and feel the disappointment time and again.

I've lined up fun things to do during my 2WW, including TV, movies, painting, adult coloring books, puzzles, working out DVDs, company/friends, and several new recipes I'd like to try. We also have a pottery class I'm excited to go to. I reserve the right to ignore the majority of these things and end up ranting obsessively on my blog instead - also a fun activity!