IVF 8 eve

We're on the cusp of our 8th IVF cycle.

It hit me like a ton of bricks last night and now I'm terrified of another failure. The thought that we did all that we did to get to this point, and made all those changes in hopes for a better outcome, only to be dealt the same story is terrifying. It's terrifying even more because I don't know where we'd go or what we'd do from there. I hope we don't have to find out.

I dread the physical pain my body is about to go through but it's not nearly as bad as the emotional roller coaster during a cycle. Both of those together are a fraction of the anxiety and pain of a failed cycle or another loss. The alternative is to stop trying and I'm not ready for that.

We checked off everything on the list, I have the meds, I took the class, and called in my CD1, so.... here we go again.