One year ago we transferred our 8th embryo in our seventh transfer. It was the same day of the superbowl but not being sports fans I didn't know who was playing or who won.
A year ago we were that IVF couple with yet another transfer scheduled. Part of switching clinics helped restore some hope but I don't know how we kept at it. I know that quitting didn't feel like an option so we kept going. I'm so glad we did.
This time last year I was up at night because I was sad and anxious about the what ifs of this never happening for us. These days I'm up at night because of dirty diapers and chapped nipples and I couldn't be more grateful.
There are still tears. These days they are tears of gratitude and disbelief at how blessed we are. Sometimes it's tears of anxiety about what if God forbid something happens to him. Or us. Or someone takes him like we see on the news. Some say it's the "smidge of PPD" talking, but anyone who went through fertility treatment knows. This child was so very much wanted before he even existed. He is just the most delicious little guy. I'm not bias - it's just fact! :)
As hectic as life is trying to balance working full time and with an infant, I wouldn't trade it for anything. Picking him up at daycare every day is my favorite part of the day. My favorite is Fridays when we have the whole weekend coming up to spend together as a family.
A year ago we were that IVF couple with yet another transfer scheduled. Part of switching clinics helped restore some hope but I don't know how we kept at it. I know that quitting didn't feel like an option so we kept going. I'm so glad we did.
This time last year I was up at night because I was sad and anxious about the what ifs of this never happening for us. These days I'm up at night because of dirty diapers and chapped nipples and I couldn't be more grateful.
There are still tears. These days they are tears of gratitude and disbelief at how blessed we are. Sometimes it's tears of anxiety about what if God forbid something happens to him. Or us. Or someone takes him like we see on the news. Some say it's the "smidge of PPD" talking, but anyone who went through fertility treatment knows. This child was so very much wanted before he even existed. He is just the most delicious little guy. I'm not bias - it's just fact! :)
As hectic as life is trying to balance working full time and with an infant, I wouldn't trade it for anything. Picking him up at daycare every day is my favorite part of the day. My favorite is Fridays when we have the whole weekend coming up to spend together as a family.
Glad to hear you are enjoying the time together. Yeah you really appreciate the babies so much after the long journey to them!
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