It's Erev Sukkot and we're nearly ready. The sukkah is up, the food is prepared, the house is clean, and we're ready for another holiday. In the background there's an undertone of excitement for what's to come: bags are packed and we've arranged the cars correctly in the driveway, just in case.
On Friday when I lit candles I cried. I cry a lot these days. Happy tears, emotional tears, excited and nervous tears. For what's to come, for the what ifs, for the changes about to take place. We're very aware about how our lives will change. For the better IYH but still very different. We will be different as our roles in life change. We've been a family of two for over twelve years. We love our family of two, and we'll love our family as it expands, but it's still a change and change is hard.
My energy is great. I've been feeling totally like myself. There's no action at all. The only indicator that anything is different is that I fall asleep and wake up at random times. The other night I slept from 7 pm to 1 am, and then again from 5 to 7 am. Yesterday I was up at 3 am after falling asleep at 10 pm. It's random, and I usually try to give it about an hour in bed before I inevitably get up and putter in the kitchen, most of the times to bake something. The other indicator is the mirror, and that doesn't lie. It took a while to look different, I think not until 2/3 of the way there.
To all celebrating, chag sameach!
Joy, support and best wishes to you!
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It’s so interesting how everyone’s pregnancy is different! The emotions I definitely felt though. The very last part of my pregnancy was the hardest because I developed really bad carpal tunnel. I hope you don’t develop any late stuff like that. So exciting you’re on the last leg! Sending lots of care and good thoughts!
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