Summer halfway update

Summer is moving along. With half of it behind us, it feels like it's moving quickly. I'm trying not to let it fly by without enjoying the moments.

It's been so hot and humid and rainy that it's difficult to find time to spend outdoors, especially when I'm chugging water to try to stay hydrated. No matter how much I drink, the second I go outside it feels like all the moisture in my body gets sucked out. So I can't be outside for very long in this weather anyway but I'm trying to make the most of it.

I've gained 7 lbs and bp is thankfully still ok. I took the glucose test this morning and hope I don't have to repeat it. Next week I hope to finalize a roof vendor and start painting some rooms. No cravings. When I'm hungry I generally don't know what I want to eat. When that happens, especially between meals I try to settle for a fruit or cucumber or a stick of cheese before heading for something more interesting. I think drinking so much water is also helping keep the weight from sneaking on. I'm not purposely trying not to gain weight but I am trying to be somewhat mindful of what I'm eating. My default meal is cereal with milk, namely Honeycomb, or eggs.

It's important to me for my husband to feel the kicking. Even though there's a lot of movement, as soon as a hand goes over there it stops and he hasn't been able to catch one yet. This week was the first time I was able to feel one with my hand. My husband is a lot more patient, saying that he'll feel it at some point in the upcoming weeks as baby gets bigger. In my mind I'm thinking that it's urgent to take advantage of it now while it's still relevant because we're not guaranteed anything. Who knows where we'll be in a few weeks. It's such a miracle and I don't want him to miss out. On the other hand I know I can't force my irrational-but-somewhat-justified anxiety on him. Maybe on some level it's also important to me to have him feel it to confirm it's not made up.

I'm still wearing regular clothing. Mainly only people we've told know. At this point I'm getting comments like 'have you gone public yet?' and I'm not sure what to respond to that. If I haven't said something to you by now it's unlikely I'll tell be "announcing" anymore. If they find out, they find out. I think the people I have told are trying to be respectful of not saying but they're kind of confused. I'm finding it difficult to give it too much thought. Not that I don't care but it's just not that important and I feel like other things take priority. This is just what feels ok to me. Maybe once I start wearing maternity clothing and it's more obvious it won't feel weird to talk about it.