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Thursday, October 21, 2021

Someday

I'm at a 4/10 level nauseous as a baseline all the time. When I wake up it's at 10/10. I started keeping an emergency cheerios stash next to my bed and power through eating 3-4 before standing up. Some days I can get to breakfast before the cheerios are rejected. Some days when I get breakfast down (eggs are usually the only thing tolerated) in time then I can manage the nausea until about 11. Most days it's just constantly there. Laying down helps but I don't have that option all the time. I know every pregnancy is different. Last time the nausea miraculously went away for the most part by 13 weeks. On the other hand I don't remember it being this bad back then. I'm down 8 lbs from transfer day. No energy after 8 pm and usually asleep by 9 most nights these days.

I saw an ad for a Van Gogh exhibit nearby which looked really cool. It made me think that there's hope for a post-pandemic world where we can go out and do things. I know it's too soon because I'm hearing of a lot of cases from asymptomatic kids, breakthrough vaccinated adults, complications for vaccinated adults. I don't know what the answer is to end this pandemic but I'm really tired of it. I'm so done with the fear and anxiety. I've been on high alert for so long that I can't anymore. I'm feeling mentally and physically exhausted all the time.... but letting our guard down is not an option. It doesn't matter that I'm triple vaxxed and masked anywhere I go - our tiny person is unvaccinated and is too young to mask properly. So we carry on being as careful as we can and praying we get through this with mind and body in tact.

4 comments:

  1. Best wishes for managing the nausea. It is pretty awful. Podcasts helped save my sanity. Also I was medicated, which was completely ok. Take care.

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  2. The nausea sounds pretty miserable. Sending lots of care and hope it goes away. It’s true about being on high alert for so long being exhausting! I get so frustrated with people choosing not to vaccinate still. Argh. But I hope the numbers go way down as time goes on and I think the mandates will push a lot of people to do it hopefully.

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  3. TELL YOUR DOCTOR HOW BAD IT IS AND WEIGHT LOSS! Some people get hospitalized due to problems from being that sick. AND, it isn't good for your pregnancy either. Watch dehydration too. SO VERY SORRY. Worried for you. Medical intervention may be necessary. you do not want this to become a super high risk event for either of you.

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  4. getting worried as you have not updated. Hope all is well and you are simply busy and tired.
    You are cared about.

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