If "ifs" and "buts" were candy and nuts

If the April transfer had worked I'd be 15 weeks pregnant.

If our November 2016 transfer had worked, I'd be 37 weeks pregnant right now.

If the June 2016 transfer had worked we'd have a 5-month-old baby.

If the December 2015 transfer had worked we'd have an 11-month-old baby.

If the September 2015 transfer had worked we'd have already celebrated a first birthday and likely contemplating starting again for another baby.

Instead we're still waiting for my period to come, recovering from yet another failed cycle, and worrying about the path forward. This makes me realize that I've always taken my period for granted - it was always such a given. It's been nearly 7 weeks since the D&C (over 3 weeks since the negative hcg test). I understand sometimes it takes a little longer when the body needs the time but it's adding a layer of tension to this already stressful ordeal. Also I need to remember to stay off Google - there's nothing helpful there. My doctor told me to come in for a "no menses panel" if it doesn't come by the end of the week. More tests. Ugh.