Our path

I need to keep remembering that I'm on my own timeline and not to compare to others' journey. I'm specifically talking about someone close to me who got pregnant in June and we would have been due within a week of each other.

I know we have a plan, we have our own timeline, we're working on getting answers. While we're dealing with the ERA, she's working through the challenges of the first trimester: physical symptoms, grappling with the reality of what's to come, telling people and being excited, and so on.

My journey took a different path and I have to remember not to see hers as a constant reminder of what could have been. When my pregnancy didn't progress, I got left behind and I lost a buddy-at-war in the thick of TTC. I know we have people who love us and support us in many ways. I also know that it just wasn't meant to be. I do believe that everything happens for a reason. Gam zu l'tova. We have a new path and we're moving forward with hope.

I try to think of the future in vague terms because things can change in the blink of an eye. One year ago we were just starting treatment. One year from now we could be well past it. Who knows. The only thing I do know is that I can't control the path, only enjoy the ride and do my best to hold on at the twists and turns.