FET update

I went in for the halfway check for bloodwork and ultrasound. The first part of the FET protocol is three weeks of birth control pills. Then there's two weeks of del estrogen shots. Once the lining is thick enough, the next step is to add progesterone (for me it's in intramuscular PIO form).

In my mind the BC pills and del estrogen shots are the first half, even if it's the longer part of the process. Once the PIO shots start, things get real. My lining measured at 10 mm but I forgot to ask if it was good. According to Google, anything above 8 mm is acceptable. My first PIO shot was last night and it was really not so bad. I got the ok to do it later than the recommended 6 PM - 9 PM slot because I was working late and there was very little wiggle room with the schedule. If I needed to I obviously would have made my husband come to my office and done the shot at work, but having that flexibility made a world of difference. I'd like to add more details about work but in the interest of keeping this somewhat anonymous I'll keep it to simply saying that my busy season is over and summer chill time has begun!

First PIO shot wasn't terrible, possibly because I was tired and it was late, or maybe because it's the first of many and my butt isn't sore yet. Who knows. Either way, I'm grateful it went well. I have a good feeling about this FET and I hope I'm not setting myself up for disappointment. I can't pinpoint why things feel different this time, but they do. I hope this is our time. 

I was out shopping with a friend at a chotchkee store helping her find costume jewelry for an upcoming occasion and happened upon a pair of pineapple socks! How funny is that? What are the odds? They were ridiculously overpriced but I got them anyway. According to the internet, pineapple helps make babies so I got them them for transfer day :)

Cute!! It makes me happy so it was worth it!

I'm dreading the 2WW. It was so stressful last year. I remember the worst part was that even after I "knew" it didn't work -- I guessed based on the HPTs and lack of symptoms -- we still had to continue with the PIOs until it was confirmed by the bloodtest. It was hard to keep doing the painful shots and trying to keep being hopeful even though I knew it didn't work. I don't know how to make it better. I don't know if there is a way to make it better. But there's no way to skip that part and even if it works, it would be the first of many milestones that require patience.

I already calculated and if this transfer sticks then we would be at 3 months around the end of summer, just in time for baggy fall clothing! This is only one of a million random thoughts that have been going through my mind in prep for this transfer. 

In terms of telling people, I decided I'm not going to argue about who he wants to tell. I'll make my case one last time of why I prefer not to and if he still decides that he wants to tell, then I won't be mad. It's such a tiny cog in the grand scheme of things. It's very possible I'm trying to hold on some form of control because the rest of the situation is so out of my control. I'm telling the internet so who am I to stop him from telling the people he chooses? I know there's a difference but I can see how he may view it as a double standard from his perspective. In a perfect world I'd rather not tell anyone until 6 weeks when we hear a heartbeat, but if that's not feasible then at least until we get a positive beta. Again, I'm getting ahead of myself and worrying about a lot of irrelevant things right now. Let's first get to a successful transfer. 

Looking forward to a restful weekend!!!