3dp6dt - Erev Shavuot

I'm feeling crummy today. I have no symptoms at all and even the cramps have subsided. I took a HPT this morning (just to mess with myself? I dunno) and of course it came out negative. Of course. It's only been 3 days! What was I thinking? It was such a bummer.

Another of the TODAY show people announced her pregnancy, Dylan Dreyer. She's one of my favorite anchors on the show. Two FB friends posted their summer bump photoshoots and three people at work announced that they're due in December so I'm feeling overwhelmed with pregnancy all around me. It's like popcorn - everyone is popping up with announcements all over. I was hoping we'd have a baby in 2016 and all these December due dates are kind of poking a mental bruise in the back of my mind.

Part of me wants to avoid people because I'm worried about what my reaction will be if anyone else pops. I want to be happy for people and I want to express joy. It's just a weird thing to experience during the 2WW mindset which is a balance of trying to hold on to hope while at the same time bracing for worst case.

Clearly anyone who is announcing is in their second trimester and they've been holding on to this secret for months already, so for them it's a joy and relief to share their excitement. I'm not trying to take away from their happiness, I just wish it wasn't a sensitive issue for me to hear about it.

Tonight starts a three day yom tov (Shabbat followed by two days of Shavuot). I was trying to schedule the AC repair for Tuesday morning and the lady was saying how she can't put me on the schedule until the part comes in, and that she'll call me tomorrow if it comes in. I tried explaining that I won't be answering the phone until Monday evening and that I won't be able to speak with her until they reopen on Tuesday morning, but she wasn't getting it. I was worried we'd get bumped to the end of the week just because I couldn't schedule something "because the system doesn't let." Listen lady, when your house is 95 degrees I'll ask you how much you care about what the system does or does not let. So, being polite and calm, I requested to be put on the schedule for repairs on Tuesday morning just in case the part comes in over the weekend or Monday. I asked her to call me and leave a voicemail on Monday to let me know if it does actually come so that I'll know whether to take off Tuesday or not. We'll see how this works.

Shabbat shalom and chag sameach!