Event and RC

Last night was my big work event. There were so many snafus: flooded dressing rooms; electrical blowouts; rider issues; diva manager problems... the list goes on and I can spend an entire post talking about each but most importantly is no one knew about these problems except internal staff. For everyone else, the event went off without a hitch and we received nothing but positive feedback. I was on my feet for 9 hours on Wednesday and nearly 14 hours on Thursday. Exhausted doesn't even come close to covering it. Happy it happened and happy it's over.

I had purposely scheduled my root canal for this morning hoping that I'd be so tired I might sleep through it. No such luck. It was uncomfortable but for the most part it felt like a filling on my part. Once my lip woke up it felt very sore.

There's drama happening in my office. I think now that the big event is over things are going to start getting real. I'm worried and interested in what's going to happen.

My nurse emailed me this morning asking how I'm doing. On one hand I appreciate the check in and want to believe she cares. On the other hand I can't help but think it's just a perfunctory email she sent because her outlook calendar reminder popped up, set in place when I told her it felt like no one at the clinic cared about our failures. It's hard to believe it was only 3 weeks ago that we went for that awful ultrasound where they couldn't find a heartbeat and everything fell to pieces. I responded that I'm doing ok physically but it's been harder to bounce back emotionally. No response. I'm ok with that: I don't need them to care, just help me succeed in what I'm trying to do.

With the big event behind us, my work schedule changes to summer hours. I have a few projects I want to get to this summer, starting with solidifying a workout routine. I don't want to join a gym for a year but I also know I haven't been good about working out outside, so I may need to suck it up and just join. Along with that I have to stop eating junk food as my main food group. I also want to try to get financing and sketches for some home renovations. During the pregnancy I kind of panicked thinking about getting these much-needed renovations done before a baby comes. I don't want to feel unready like that going in to the next try.

Ten years ago tomorrow we got married. Happy 10th to us!