Down day

I've been feeling a little bummed the past few days. I can generally tell what's bothering me but I can't quite pinpoint what it is this time. There are a few things that are possible contributors.

Tonight is the first night of the PIO shots. It's harder and more emotionally draining than I expected to do a fake cycle with all the shots and appointments but none of the hope of a transfer.

I've been busy at work, but it's busywork. It's not challenging and I'm not feeling accomplished or motivated. I have my yearly review coming up. More on that in a future post.

My friends are busy with other things. Most of them are either dealing with their kids, or going on vacations, or just generally unavailable to hang out. It's a little lonely.

I've been exercising more and pulled a muscle in my back that's taking a while to loosen up.

I'm seeing newly preg people complain about nausea, heartburn, fatigue, and how nothing fits. I understand they're suffering and uncomfortable, I really get it. These are all real problems for them and I can't help but wonder if I'll ever have to deal with these issues. I think of how exciting it is for them that in just a few short weeks they'll be done with the first trimester and get to tell everyone their special news.

I started watching Cheers. I was curious about the show dubbed the most popular series of all time and since I was looking for a new show to binge watch it helped that it has 11 seasons. Y'know what? Some times it IS nice to go where everyone knows your name! I wish I had a place to go to relax and socialize with people I know and like. I'm up to S1:E4 and so far I don't hate it.

I've got too much time to think. Most people my age have so much going on. I feel like I could be doing better with my time. I think the hormones are also not helping. I dunno. Tomorrow is another day.