FET 5: T-1

I was holding a newborn today and got sad when I had to give her back. I look forward to one day when it will be my baby and I don't have to give it back.

The blood thinner medication has been interesting. I'm on Enoxaparin (turns out the brand name, Lovenox, isn't carried in any of the pharmacies around). First, this injection burns. BURNS. I've taken to swearing like a sailor as it goes in. The burn goes away within a minute or so, replaced by a bruise. That's my belly now. Beside the burn, I noticed something horrifying. The medication includes porcine intestinal mucosa. In other words, pig.

When I first realized it, I freaked out. I don't like animal products in my optional cosmetics let alone in my mandatory medication. But beside that, avoiding swine is kind of a big deal in Judaism. We don't eat pork. Even kosher animals have to be killed in a certain humane way in order to be considered kosher for eating, but pig isn't even a kosher animal. I freaked out. I ran crying to my husband, who was amazing. He reassured me and calmly explained the halacha. In short, injectable medication is under a different category than food or oral medication and therefore if there's a medical requirement then it is allowed according to all rabbis. Even so, I called the pharmacy to see if there was an alternative but there isn't. It still grosses me out and I still hate this injection, but we do what we have to do.

I went to get a pedicure today. I did my errands and some laundry. My massage lady was back in time to squeeze me in and I had my massage this evening. All that's left to do is the transfer itself. We did the shots, I took the pills, and we did everything possible in our power to help this little embryo stick. Now it's all up to Him.

We're hoping this is it and we'll take any prayers and good vibes anyone wants to send over. We're so hoping this is it.