FET 5: CD1

With first day of full flow begins the official timeline for FET #5. I start bcp on Saturday and have a date scheduled for a transfer.

The lab doing PGD on our embryos sent paperwork for us to fill out and they need us to fill out whether we want PGD or PGD+Mitoscore. Wth is mitoscore? I didn't know what to fill out so I asked my nurse who also had no idea, and when she asked other nurses they didn't know either. She's going to look into it and let me know. Weird.

I have an appointment for my annual gyn appointment next week. I scheduled it so long ago and I was sure I'd be pregnant by this appointment. I love my doctor so I'll be glad to see her but I hope I get to see her more often for a different reason soon. I also have my annual physical scheduled for the end of the month. I think it's important not to lose sight of overall health amidst all the fertility appointments.

Tonight starts my Hebrew birthday. Next week is my English birthday. We haven't planned anything. In past few years we've done a getaway. We just didn't have time off work to make it happen this year. We were thinking maybe after Pesach but with a transfer in a few weeks a trip may not happen at all. Please... if only. I wanted to take a day off work but things are so busy there doesn't seem to be a good day to do that.

My in-laws are coming for Pesach again this year. We'll have to figure out how to do all the shots on yom tov with guests around. Not that we're hiding it but still. Purim is a week from Sunday and I haven't started any preps. I waited until after the egg retrieval to send out invitations because I was worried about recovery. Turns out I had waited too long and all the guests I invited aren't available or have other plans.

I had trouble sleeping this week and it's catching up to me. I can't believe it's already Thursday night. It feels like the week flew by. The tiredness makes me feel apathetic to everything. I'm too tired to feel sad or care about things. I just am. It just is. I don't like this brain fog because I keep getting the feeling like I'm forgetting something. Last night I barely got 5 hours total and it wasn't even consecutive. I'm trying to hold out to go to sleep at a normal hour so I don't wake up at 2am for the day.

My husband is happy when I tell him exactly what I want for my birthday. He'd rather we go buy it together than be expected to surprise me because I'm hard to please (according to him). So I have a few things I'd like. A new oven. A new bed. Redoing the floors on the first level. Obviously some are more pricey than other options but that's the idea. I love jewelry he picks out but I know there's a finite budget and I want all the things. As I get older I value my birthday differently and my expectations differ. Maybe I'll write about it more next week.

There has been some office drama going on. It makes for short days, but they're intense and exhausting. I think this needs its own post too.

I went pottery painting with a friend the other night. I really enjoy working with my hands. I want to start a hobby doing it but I'm not sure what or whether I want to spend the money on it. I loved installing the doorbell and feeling useful around the house. I wish I knew how to do renovations on my own - that would solve a lot of dilemmas!