IVF 6: Embryo watch

Of the 28 eggs retrieved, 20 were mature, 18 fertilized. It's a ridiculously awesome number. We're cautiously thrilled and we know there's expected attrition.

I've been suffering from the worst post-retrieval symptoms I've ever had after an IVF cycle. The nausea didn't completely go away. I've been painfully gassy and constipated. It's hard to walk, it's hard to move, it's hard to breathe. My stomach is hard and tender to the touch. I remembered this from before but I don't remember it being this bad. I've been afraid to eat because I didn't want to add on more to it. I took some Colace today and hope it does something. I plan to call the clinic in the morning if it doesn't.

Today I was reflecting back to my husband about my pre-cycle jitters and hesitation. At the time I couldn't exactly pinpoint why I was anxious about another cycle. I chalked it up to just be burned out with fertility treatment. I realize now that this is what I was dreading. The shots are not terrible, the traffic and monitoring are manageable, even the retrieval itself and everything that led to it was tolerable. It's the pain and recovery that are so difficult for me.

It's been a difficult week. Work is so hectic. Friends and family are busy with their own lives with first weeks of school and getting ready for the holidays starting next week. I've been trying to not feel neglected by my support network. I know it's not personal, there's a lot going on. I hope I stop feeling crappy soon.

The new fall theme for the blog reminds me of this time last year. What a crazy 12 months until now. Hope the next 12 are better.