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Sunday, September 17, 2017

Gutted

Only two.

Got the final update on our embryos this morning and there were no additional ones that made it to blast. Our final count being sent for testing is two embryos. Knowing the odds of what it takes for them both to come back healthy I'm not holding my breath. I went into this cycle fully knowing that there's a chance it might be a bust. But when we got 28 eggs and 14 embryos on day 5, the chance for a bust seemed so slim. I knew not to be so excited about the high numbers. I knew we couldn't possibly get all of those. But two? Just two? WTH?????

Can't stop crying. So upset. Asked my doctor to call me. We'll see if he does. My husband is ready to call it quits on these people and move to the second clinic. I don't know what to do next. For now I have to go pack for this stupid trip.

So tired of this merry-go-round from hell. I just want to be done with this stage of life and be raising my babies. This is such a nightmare. The high's mess with your brain and make the low's that much worse. Burned out and sapped of any hope or faith right now.

5 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry. My thoughts are with you and the two that did make it so far.

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  2. Oh I know how soul crushing this is. I'm so sorry. Keeping you and your 2 little fighters in my thoughts.

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  3. oh gosh, that's really disappointing, I'm so sorry. I really hope and prayer that at least one of those will come back perfect!

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  4. I am so sorry. There are truly few things worse in life than IVF (they say the pain and stress of fertility issues is similar to that of cancer), especially when it doesn't go well. Our three IVF attempts were such complete failures we fell into a deep depression and finally moved on to donor embryos. Just couldn't do it anymore.

    But miracles do happen, and I really, really hope one or both of those turns out to be your future child(ren)!

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  5. Ugh. I'm sorry there are so many ways for infertility to suck. If only we could earn a break somehow, when it's so needed!

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