Best case scenario

It's hard to explain to someone what it feels like when a transfer doesn't work. An embryo isn't a baby, and yet you put all your hopes and dreams into a tiny basket and wish for the best. The doctors tell you to act pregnant and cut down on alcohol and deli, "because you might be!"  So when the beta comes back at zero or a number close to it, it's not like you were pregnant and you lost it -- you were never pregnant.  How can you be sad for losing something you never had?

I believe the two week wait has a lot to do with it. After the transfer they cut you loose with many thoughts to keep you company for the next two weeks. Those weeks are maddening!  A person can go nuts grinding those what if's over and over again in their mind. Staying positive means being hopeful and it's impossible not to imagine and day dream the best case scenario.

I compare it to playing the lottery. You know the odds and yet just playing is enough to let your wildest dreams run free -- pay off debt, live a life of luxury, help the family, fund a charity, travel the world -- the options are endless! Your dreams will come true if only this works.

Here's to many dreams coming true in 2016.