Happy St Patty

No news to report but it's been so busy that I feel like I have a lot of complaining to catch up on.

The weather keeps yo-yoing between beautiful and miserable. That in addition to the clocks changing has really messed with my mood. I was very blah the first few days of this week when it was rainy and gloomy, and I was grumpy because I lost an hour off my weekend. I spent some time decluttering my kitchen which meant the the cabinets were clear but the countertops were a disaster with everything from the cabinets. It took a few days to clear out and sort the donations from the trash, and during those few days the house was a disaster. Having a clean house makes me happy, so when the house is messy I get crabby.

Along with foul mood swings I've also completely given up on eating healthy. I chalked it up to "birthday celebrating" but in reality I was just being lazy and didn't care. Cookies, take-out, snacks, pizza... whatever. Not eating out of control, but definitely not as careful about watching my weight or caring about calories. Of course all that sugar that I'm not used to is probably not helping the mood swings. I was feeling bloated and icky so I kind of reeled it in and started cooking dinner at home again. It will probably take weeks to undo the damage #sorrynotsorry.

I finished the show I was binge watching and now the only one I have to watch is the one we're watching together. I have way more time so it's annoying that I have to wait for him to watch it. It's also annoying that between Netflix, Amazon Prime, Hulu, and Youtube I still can't find something to watch. In truth it's probably that I just don't want to start anything new but I might have to.

The clinic was being annoying about payment. They said that the copay was due on "day 10 of BC pills" without a date. It's as though they need to make sure I pay up front before they schedule the IVF cycle. In the last three cycles I just made my payment on the day I came in for my baseline. Why is it different now? I asked if I need to make a special trip to make a payment and the manager said that, "The payment is due on the 10th day but if you need additional time to take care of this payment, baseline is fine." As though they're doing me a favor. Thanks. You're getting all my money anyway before doing anything, so does it really matter? Sometimes I feel like they just like reminding me who's in charge.

Purim is next week - hooray! I have prepared nothing and purchased zero groceries. Wednesday is a fast day that I'm not looking forward to, but then I get off work for Thurs/Fri.

Work is getting so busy. It's great because it's been a great distraction. I don't have time to think about everything coming up with cycle 4. I missed a meeting on 2/26 because I had an egg retrieval that day. Depending on how things progress this next time, there's a very real chance I might miss part 2 of that important meeting due to treatment. If that happens I feel like I may have no choice but to tell my supervisor what's going on. I really hope it doesn't happen -- if I tell them I'd rather do it by choice not because I feel forced. We'll take it one day at a time and see what happens.

Goals for next week:
- Declutter closets
- Make cookies and roast on Sunday for Purim
- Place medication order
- Plan out lunches and dinners to avoid take-out