What day is it?

It feels like there hasn't been a spare moment to sit and think. I've been trying to hold on to everything so that I can process when I have a minute to breathe. I can barely keep track of the days of the week, let alone wrap my mind around it being October. 

FET update: done three labs confirming doubling beta. One scan down, one scan to go before they release to OB. Crinone continues through 10 weeks. First scan we saw the flickering of a heartbeat. [Side thought: If I was in Texas and if this was an unwanted pregnancy, it would already be too late for an abortion. Not even a few weeks from when I actually got pregnant. Mind boggling.] In true second child fashion, all of this incredible news took a back seat to everything else going on.

Our little guy had a respiratory situation. It started with a cough he got at daycare. Progressed to include a runny nose and wheezing. Tested negative for covid. We know RSV was going around school so even though he never officially tested for it, because treatment would be the same, that's what I assume it was. Between telehealth, peds, and urgent peds appointments and follow up phone calls, we finally got something that worked. He was put on steroids which helped clear his lungs. It was very scary for a minute because if that had not helped the next step was the emergency room. Scary on its own; terrifying during a pandemic when case numbers are STILL going up. Cough will still take some time to go away completely.

Between all those appointments we had the holidays. So much prep and so much cooking. I am completely burned out. I can't think about shopping, menu planning, cooking, or looking at food. The holidays landed in the middle of the week and then shabbat followed shortly after. There was just no time to recover and clean up from one when there was another coming right up. This repeated for a month. We were mainly home on our own. We are still not socializing regularly, so there was a limited number of people we could see. There seems to be an outbreak in our community of covid so it was a lot of keeping him from others so he doesn't cough on them and they don't infect him. 

Above all that we had to work, trying to cram full weeks of work into truncated days. With no down time and feeling exhausted and crummy it's been a very hectic month. 

Grateful and happy. Ready to get into some new routine.